The kind of people I called jerks...

How do I start this post.. Hmmm...
~ this post content foul language.. Please do not read if your under 17 or if you're going to judge me after reading this.. Thank you :D ~
I hate walking alone in the streets.. When I came home from work I usually walk, that usually take about 10-15 minutes.. It's not that I don't like walking.. But the so-called-guys which I prefer to call jerks are just freaking annoying...
For the record I never wear revealing outfit to the office.. Just some shirts or a little tight shirts or skirts or long pants.. Never use a tank top and mini skirt generally..
So when I walk from the office, imagine my surprise when couple of random guys tease the crap out of me.. It's not bothering me when it's just like a 'siulan' or some thing like that.. I can just shrug it off.. But when they started to say something that inappropriate up to the level I can call verbal sexual harassment
I mean..Come on.. What the fuck dude?? Are you fucking serious??
That kind of word should never be said in public let alone said it to tease some girl...
So when I decided I had enough,I kinda block them by hearing my gorge ipod... Did that solve the problem??? We'll apparently not.. Yes I cannot hear what those assholes were saying but how they look at me is purely disgusting... I'm not that pretty so I know that they didn't look at my face but those jerks eye doesn't even look sorry for starring at my freakin body.. Really jerks??? What the hell are you thinking?? And what the fuck am I supposed to do?? walking with my face looking down the road (literally)? That's not a solution..
The most sickening part for me was when they do it as a group.. I always avoid the construction end day in "a mall" I pass everyday cause when they all in the sideways when I came home alone then those jerks became assholes and then turn into this fucking bitch... Yes those words are cruel but how those man tease girls as a group was also very very uncool and made me shiffer.. Even when I'm with my bf, can't help to hold him a little tighter @ that particular place and condition...
Then again there's this so-called educated guy who does the same thing at my office.. They tease.. They look... I consider them lower than those guys I called jerks and assholes.. If the law is clear like in the us or europe, I'll fucking sue your ass for a fucking sexual harrasment...
And for those who thinks that this happen because the girl 'memancing' those jerks or the girl like to be tease inappropriately should just keep her/his mouth shut in front of me unless they know what I'm experiencing..
That's why I really need a friend to walk there sometimes..and it seriously not because I'm spoiled or anything LOL especially when I'm with my dearly beloved bf.. I don't think nobody even dare to look at me wrongly (yes he's that scary hahahaha)..
Yes sweety... I know.. To much curse and swears.. I hide it when I got home or delete it :D
Gerberairis
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ending a relationship..

oh i almost forget to post this!!!

2 days a go, my boyfriend and i talking about how it was easier to go through a  break-up when we're in the side that called it off.. he's saying that cause he tried both :D and then he said "it's the same for you, you called it quits so it's easier for you than for your ex". well at that time i agree with him.. until i look back..

breaking up with somebody is always devastating. even when you're in the side who called it quits.. at that time is not that it was easier for me but i just feel numb.. i cannot feel anything, i did cried for an hour exactly the next day.. but after that it's just numb.. i feel nothing.. not hate.. not hurt.. not pain.. nothing.. so it's not easier i guess, it's just like you don't have anything to feel.. thank god i had a splendid friends then..
i don't remember if i tell him this or not??? heheheheh oh well.. selamat membaca sayang..

gerberairis

Cheers dude!

Okay.. So I don't get it.. This guy thinks that he's the 'guy'.. You know, a guy who thinks that he's all that.. That every women wants him.. That every thing he done is amazing.. I'll admit that I know a couple of girls who think like that.. But did he really think I will feel the same way?? *indonesia mode :LOL:* iya gue curhat ma dia.. Iya gue minta nasehat dia... Tapi apa dengan kaya gitu trus gue harus fall head over heels gt ma dia?? Well that's freakin hilarious...
Nah sekarang? Kalo gue deket sama cowo laen, do he really need to act all jealous? Sementara dia ga punya hak to do that? Gue punya preference untuk crita ke org yg gue anggap nyaman.. Even my dearly beloved boyfriend aja ga masalah..
He really think kalo dia udah nguasain gue sama telah berhasil membuat gue jadi salah satu korban dia.. Well think again dude... It is so pathetic seeing him try to make me jealous while I feel nothing.. I don't care really tp it's start to bother me when he did it with my girl friends... Yes friends like 2 of my friends.. Sementara dia dan gue tau keadaan perasaan salah satu cewe ini yg lagi labil but nooo dia tetep 'gangguin' ni cewe.. Kadang I had enough with him.. His arrogance and everything.. Thank god I had this other friend kalo buat crita2...
He need to realize that he's not all that.. Dan dia harus sadar that this time he played a player, and he lose...
I never played a guy friend, but I'm good at manipulating.. I know it's not something to be proud of but this skill is very usefull on dealing this kind of situation.. You know the situation where you make the guy think that you're soo lugu *apa ya bahasa inggrisnya hahahahah* and very depending on him ?? I'm good at that.. Very damn good :LOL: it even take my then-bestfriend-now-boyfriend almost 2 years to know my hidden ability... do I sound like a b**ch?? Well I didn't really intend to manipulate, I'm just that easy going with my guy friend...
Inti post ini sebenernya just to give shout out to that dude.. Just a little message, this time i made you believe that you're a better player than me.. I made you believe that I became a player because of you.. I made you believe that you're some kind of a role model... But in the end.. it's not me who act jealous and its not me who act all weird when I'm close to another person...
Cheers dude :)
Gosh this post really made me look like a b**ch!!!
Xoxo,
Gerberairis
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