What's On my mind in That Stupid but Oh So Lovely night

this guy always teasing me about my "drama queen" habit..
this guy always yelling at me if i tell him a story about my "problem"..
this guy always saying that he will never ( with a capital N E V E R ) date his best friend..
this guy always saying that he treat all his girl best friend the same way he treated me..
this guy always treated me so coldly when we met..
this guy also said that we will never ended up together ( or is it me who said that?:D)

but..

this guy said he like like me at midnight 27.07.2007..

and..

this guy ended up loving me more than i know..

vice versa...

gerbera_iris

This Thing Called Happiness

it's been like almost six month i did'nt post anything in this blog..
well i'm back !! (Yeey me!! - and i know i'm the only one who read this blog LOL)

in this past six month i have a new boyfriend (a good guy indeed which i can read my whole experience with him, before we actually together in this blog), lost a bestfriend, went to my brother wedding, went to bidadari island with my co workers in indosat, meet my boyfriend parents, meet more of my boyfriend family, my birthday, his birthday, went to a co workers wedding in bandung hmm what else..what did i missed..well i tell all along the way..

bottom line is i'm happy..

and i'm truly sorry to the people i hurt so that i can gain this happiness..

love always,
gerbera_iris

Not Ready To Make Nice

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

dixie chicks - not ready to make nice

i'm sorry...

to all my friends who chat with me today well on february 13th...i'm so sorry for being so b**chy..and annoying..and hyper sensitive..and mad for no reason..and acting crazy..and laughing like a lunatic..and yelling..well all more then my usual self..just not in a good mood..a very very bad mood..i tell you the reason but then it's a women thing..anyway..bare with me for this week okay hehehehe i'm not really mad at you guys..

to cappuletkhan =>thanks for the dvd..really entertaining hehehehe

gerbera_iris

spinning day today!!

it's a hard day for work and health..

well as you all knows how stupid i am, i dont use my umbrella when is raining thingking i will be fine..and well i'm not fine..my head hurt like somebody spin it 200 times..i feel like i'm going to vommit and i got a lot of work..i usually dont take meds a lot but this is an emergency situation..1 panadol didnt do it but 2 kinda make it easier at least makes me finish my work in time..still dizzy i have to go home but thank god i'm not alone..thanks for letting me rest my head for a little while..the bus is kinda spinning like crazy or is it just me??ahahhaha

now nothing change...head keep hurting and spinning..feel sick and guess whatt people??!! i have to be in the office at 6 am in the morning..

gerbera_iris

there you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me

For always
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life

gerbera_iris

a package?

i guess you know when you feeling something to someone..that tingling feeling when you see him, when he text you,when he say hi to you in the messenger, oh and when he look at you with this weird expression in his face.. your heart just jump around everywhere..
but do you know how hurt it is when he dissapointed you or when he ignores you...
learning from my personal experience that both come together like a package hahahaha..
but i guess we just have to enjoy it...
by the way this post made last friday just forgot to post it from the office..

gerbera_iris