*sigh*

i want my kitty back...

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This week is so....

What can I say about today and yesterday or all this week for that matter.. all good things happen and also not so good things.. then lets just make this short so I don’t bore the people (my boyfriend) who read my blog..
Lets start with the bad first..this week especially is the most tiring week of all.. and that’s gotta do with work mostly..my boss gave me a work that have to be done in a week, and it’s a lot and then my supervisor also left me some “presents” which I also have to finish and then I have to do my weekly report also *sigh* so so tired… well at least the good thing is I finish all my work this week..and then on Wednesday I have to go home alone without my boyfriend L I don’t like walking alone, but I think I will do that a lot in the next months or so cause he’s getting so busy…hope he didn’t forget about me : p
Now the good part..
Yesterday is our 7th anniversary (no not years also not days its months).. yeeeyyy!! Well we planning to celebrate it together but we ended up eating with my family.. it’s been a quick and long seven months.. quick cause we’re just start dating for 7 months but we got a good understanding between us I don’t say we don’t have flaws or we’re perfect or anything like that but we just click and all in a really fast time..maybe because we’re best friend first and then we’re a couple..yes I know you all tired reading me and him as best friend but deal with it, we’re most likely a good couple cause we’re best friend. A long seven month cause I can feel and remember every single nice and kind thing he done and I’m able to forgive and forget the things he did wrong to me and hold no grudge..

Today was special for me (and him?) cause finally we can have a meal 2gether and window shopping in couple of store ( okay okay 5 stores at least but it’s not just me!! I also look something for hin lol)..after that ( this I cant believe he did) he wait for a long one and a halfhour for me to get my haircut..thanks sweety I really really appreciate that..
And huney..i’m waiting for our monthly chat sweety : p

well this is the new haircut,ga keliatan ya? gitu2 aja :((

i :x u

gerbera_iris

whats in my computer today?

I've got like 20 excel file open in my computer,
2 PL/SQL developer for
2 different database with
7 script file inside it,
4 windows explorer,
a mozilla firefox with
4 tabs in it,
Inbox - Microsoft outlook,
FlashGet and
iTunes ...
That 20 excel file must finish on Friday..
I'm freakin' tired..
I'm so sleepy..
I haven't got my THR until this minute..
and i'm hungry..
but other than that..I'm perfect!

gerbera_iris

s.t.u.p.i.d.t.o.d.a.y

Sweety..
all the things you've done since yesterday..
it's not useless or don't do any good..
i can be in a worst state bad mood-depression thingy without you..
i just really miss you..
and I'm being really really spoiled..
so i ask a lot of stupid things that i shouldn't ask..
it's not that i don't trust you..
i really do..
it's just nice to hear your answer for every stupid Q's i ask..
oh and being beside you did make my bad mood gone little by little..
that's why i hate today :(
but I'll be expecting your calls at night ;p
so have fun sweety..

much love,

gerbera_iris

when you're gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

( when you're gone - Avril Lavigne )

I found a new song i really enjoy..well it's not new i just really listen to it right now..and i also just see the video for this song..nice video i must say..and needless to say who is this song i dedicate to, just like any other love song sweety he3x

i :x u

gerbera_iris

For That Wonderful Night

July 14th, 2007

My 20th birthday was almost 3 months ago..okay okay thats my sister age, I'm really 21..so my 21st birthday was almost 3 months a go.... *lies lies lies lies* okay fine..I'm really 23, and not a minute older!! hmm but now is like i'm around 23 years 2 months 20 days, anyway thats not really important he3x lets start over...
My 23rd birthday was almost 3 months ago..but i still can remember every detail of it. it was the most beautiful, lovely and just simply memorable birthday i ever had my whole life..unless when the day i was born of course, thats the top of my birthday list lol.. anyway, my birthday was in Saturday just the right time for date night with my huggable boyfriend ;p Saturday use to be very boring (well exactly like today cause he had to go to his home in pamulang and i'm aloneeeee :(( hehehehehe just kidding baby) but now i loovvveee our date night :p

it started one night before my birthday when i'm in bistro deliferance PIM2, and i tried to called him but either he didn't answer it or he act like he doesn't wanna speak to me..so well yeah i kinda curse a lot to my sister about him hahahahha not bad curse though, just he's being a pain..

When its almost 12 i do expect my boyfriend to at least call me not just text me.. and it's 12 he didnt even have the decency to call me..well i get my first text and birthday greet from my lovely cousin Naya (thanks sis!) and when i just replying my couz text suddenly my sister calling me from outside, her exact word is "teh, sini liat si meng lucu deh" and i said hold on a second but she was very very insisted at that time soo i went outside and guess who i found in my living room..my sweet boyfriend..holding a rose bouquet..


and at that moment i just stand in front of my room..a little bit confused he3x...and the word coming out of my mouth is only "what are you doing here??" he3x and then he gave me the 23 roses which is wrap in one bouquet..23 roses for 23 years..and i jut cant stop smiling when he gave me that bouquet..and then i see a cake in my dinner table..he gave me a blueberry cheesecake from harvest which said happy birthday sasvia with a 2 and 3 candle in it (i should take that cake photo rather than blew the candle and just instantly eat it he3x)...I'm just speechless..and then come the presents!!

he gave me a big stitch doll, a little stitch doll, a garfield comic book and above all he gave me this beautiful ring with 2 heart shape jewel in it, one is pink and one is colorless.. i know i've seen this ring with a drooll look but i dont know he remember it.. i just love all of the things he had done and gave..cause everything had deep meaning more than just a simple present..

Okay now the whole story.. apperantly my boyfriend is been working together with my sister to plan this night..my own sister!! lol.. so every sneaky calls and sms i couldn't read is to my sister ( and i wonder why i didn't think he was cheating on me at that time he3x), then he ask his friend help to buy the flower (which i know he cant do this alone lol), buy the cake and then drive him to my house..oh my sister also gave me a present, a beautiful red dress from promod..

when i opened one of the present, he said that i already know what it is..what he didn't know is that i hope for it (the present) but i don't think it will happen..and it is like i wish it, that beautiful gorgeous ring is in my hand and the person who gave it to me is the person i loved the most ( besides my cat and my family that is ha3x)..oh and he said he knows the consequences on giving me the ring is i will love the ring more than him ha3x smart guy he3x...come on sweety..how can i love a thing more than i love a person like you..

and then we talk about everything from 12 am to 1 am..about my birthday, how he planned it, how he lied to me he3x but this is for good cause so i don't mind lol...after we finish the cake, he said happy birthday and hope i like everything he done to me then he said good night and gave me my birthday hug..

thanks for that wonderful night dear..

i :x u





gerbera_iris

if you were mine...

If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Everything I dreamed about
Everything that I talked about
One thing I can't live without
I wanna get closer to you
Can't stand being far away
Knowing that you don't feel the same way
Questioning bring tears to your eyes

If you were mine,
I be your your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

All words I sing about
All that is that I write about
Only thing I wanna hear about
So that I can get closer to you
I know that there is someone else, but he's only thinking of himself
Doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely

Let me be the one to share your hopes and dreams with
You'll never be alone again, cuz' I will hold you endlessly
Please don't be afraid to let your broken heart guide you
Into these open arms that long to surround you, baby!!

( marcos hernandez- if you were mine )

he's my everything,
he is the one i share my hopes and dreams,
he hold me endlessly ,
I'm the only one he needed,
and
i never feel alone again...
so i guess he keep his word when he dedicate this song for me ;p


love always,

gerbera_iris