Sep 29, 2007

This week is so....

What can I say about today and yesterday or all this week for that matter.. all good things happen and also not so good things.. then lets just make this short so I don’t bore the people (my boyfriend) who read my blog..
Lets start with the bad first..this week especially is the most tiring week of all.. and that’s gotta do with work boss gave me a work that have to be done in a week, and it’s a lot and then my supervisor also left me some “presents” which I also have to finish and then I have to do my weekly report also *sigh* so so tired… well at least the good thing is I finish all my work this week..and then on Wednesday I have to go home alone without my boyfriend L I don’t like walking alone, but I think I will do that a lot in the next months or so cause he’s getting so busy…hope he didn’t forget about me : p
Now the good part..
Yesterday is our 7th anniversary (no not years also not days its months).. yeeeyyy!! Well we planning to celebrate it together but we ended up eating with my family.. it’s been a quick and long seven months.. quick cause we’re just start dating for 7 months but we got a good understanding between us I don’t say we don’t have flaws or we’re perfect or anything like that but we just click and all in a really fast time..maybe because we’re best friend first and then we’re a couple..yes I know you all tired reading me and him as best friend but deal with it, we’re most likely a good couple cause we’re best friend. A long seven month cause I can feel and remember every single nice and kind thing he done and I’m able to forgive and forget the things he did wrong to me and hold no grudge..

Today was special for me (and him?) cause finally we can have a meal 2gether and window shopping in couple of store ( okay okay 5 stores at least but it’s not just me!! I also look something for hin lol)..after that ( this I cant believe he did) he wait for a long one and a halfhour for me to get my haircut..thanks sweety I really really appreciate that..
And huney..i’m waiting for our monthly chat sweety : p

well this is the new haircut,ga keliatan ya? gitu2 aja :((

i :x u


Sep 26, 2007

whats in my computer today?

I've got like 20 excel file open in my computer,
2 PL/SQL developer for
2 different database with
7 script file inside it,
4 windows explorer,
a mozilla firefox with
4 tabs in it,
Inbox - Microsoft outlook,
FlashGet and
iTunes ...
That 20 excel file must finish on Friday..
I'm freakin' tired..
I'm so sleepy..
I haven't got my THR until this minute..
and i'm hungry..
but other than that..I'm perfect!


Sep 25, 2007


all the things you've done since yesterday..
it's not useless or don't do any good..
i can be in a worst state bad mood-depression thingy without you..
i just really miss you..
and I'm being really really spoiled..
so i ask a lot of stupid things that i shouldn't ask..
it's not that i don't trust you..
i really do..
it's just nice to hear your answer for every stupid Q's i ask..
oh and being beside you did make my bad mood gone little by little..
that's why i hate today :(
but I'll be expecting your calls at night ;p
so have fun sweety..

much love,


Sep 24, 2007

when you're gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it ok

I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

( when you're gone - Avril Lavigne )

I found a new song i really enjoy..well it's not new i just really listen to it right now..and i also just see the video for this song..nice video i must say..and needless to say who is this song i dedicate to, just like any other love song sweety he3x

i :x u


Sep 22, 2007

For That Wonderful Night

July 14th, 2007

My 20th birthday was almost 3 months ago..okay okay thats my sister age, I'm really my 21st birthday was almost 3 months a go.... *lies lies lies lies* okay fine..I'm really 23, and not a minute older!! hmm but now is like i'm around 23 years 2 months 20 days, anyway thats not really important he3x lets start over...
My 23rd birthday was almost 3 months ago..but i still can remember every detail of it. it was the most beautiful, lovely and just simply memorable birthday i ever had my whole life..unless when the day i was born of course, thats the top of my birthday list lol.. anyway, my birthday was in Saturday just the right time for date night with my huggable boyfriend ;p Saturday use to be very boring (well exactly like today cause he had to go to his home in pamulang and i'm aloneeeee :(( hehehehehe just kidding baby) but now i loovvveee our date night :p
it started one night before my birthday when i'm in bistro deliferance PIM2, and i tried to called him but either he didn't answer it or he act like he doesn't wanna speak to well yeah i kinda curse a lot to my sister about him hahahahha not bad curse though, just he's being a pain..

When its almost 12 i do expect my boyfriend to at least call me not just text me.. and it's 12 he didnt even have the decency to call me..well i get my first text and birthday greet from my lovely cousin Naya (thanks sis!) and when i just replying my couz text suddenly my sister calling me from outside, her exact word is "teh, sini liat si meng lucu deh" and i said hold on a second but she was very very insisted at that time soo i went outside and guess who i found in my living sweet boyfriend..holding a rose bouquet..

and at that moment i just stand in front of my room..a little bit confused he3x...and the word coming out of my mouth is only "what are you doing here??" he3x and then he gave me the 23 roses which is wrap in one bouquet..23 roses for 23 years..and i jut cant stop smiling when he gave me that bouquet..and then i see a cake in my dinner table..he gave me a blueberry cheesecake from harvest which said happy birthday sasvia with a 2 and 3 candle in it (i should take that cake photo rather than blew the candle and just instantly eat it he3x)...I'm just speechless..and then come the presents!!

he gave me a big stitch doll, a little stitch doll, a garfield comic book and above all he gave me this beautiful ring with 2 heart shape jewel in it, one is pink and one is colorless.. i know i've seen this ring with a drooll look but i dont know he remember it.. i just love all of the things he had done and gave..cause everything had deep meaning more than just a simple present..

Okay now the whole story.. apperantly my boyfriend is been working together with my sister to plan this own sister!! lol.. so every sneaky calls and sms i couldn't read is to my sister ( and i wonder why i didn't think he was cheating on me at that time he3x), then he ask his friend help to buy the flower (which i know he cant do this alone lol), buy the cake and then drive him to my house..oh my sister also gave me a present, a beautiful red dress from promod..

when i opened one of the present, he said that i already know what it is..what he didn't know is that i hope for it (the present) but i don't think it will happen..and it is like i wish it, that beautiful gorgeous ring is in my hand and the person who gave it to me is the person i loved the most ( besides my cat and my family that is ha3x)..oh and he
said he knows the consequences on giving me the ring is i will love the ring more than him ha3x smart guy he3x...come on can i love a thing more than i love a person like you..

and then we talk about everything from 12 am to 1 am..about my birthday, how he planned it, how he lied to me he3x but this is for good cause so i don't mind lol...after we finish the cake, he said happy birthday and hope i like everything he done to me then he said good night and gave me my birthday hug..

thanks for that wonderful night dear..

i :x u


Sep 21, 2007

if you were mine...

If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Everything I dreamed about
Everything that I talked about
One thing I can't live without
I wanna get closer to you
Can't stand being far away
Knowing that you don't feel the same way
Questioning bring tears to your eyes

If you were mine,
I be your your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

All words I sing about
All that is that I write about
Only thing I wanna hear about
So that I can get closer to you
I know that there is someone else, but he's only thinking of himself
Doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely

Let me be the one to share your hopes and dreams with
You'll never be alone again, cuz' I will hold you endlessly
Please don't be afraid to let your broken heart guide you
Into these open arms that long to surround you, baby!!

( marcos hernandez- if you were mine )

he's my everything,
he is the one i share my hopes and dreams,
he hold me endlessly ,
I'm the only one he needed,
i never feel alone again...
so i guess he keep his word when he dedicate this song for me ;p

love always,


P.S. I Love You

This is an Early Review for the movie P.S. I Love You which adapted from a novel with the same name, this novel is made by Cecelia Ahern. i had the pleasure to read her book a couple years back, I've read P.S. I love you and Where rainbows end. Personally i like p.s. i love you better, the character and the story just struck me as a beautiful stories. granted that i never really mention this book in my favorite books at friendster, my space or other stuff but i think this book is worth reading, and after seeing the poster for the movie i just fell in love instantly.

the story tells us about Gerry and Holly, childhood sweethearts who ended up being each other soulmate and get married. life seems perfect for them until Gerry died. Gerry's death devastates Holly. But in her 30th birthday, Gerry comes back to her. He's left her a bundle of notes, each note signed "P.S. I Love You." As the notes are gradually opened, and as the year unfolds, Holly is both cheered up and challenged. The man who knows her better than anyone sets out to teach her that life goes on. With some help from her friends, and her noisy and loving family, Holly finds herself laughing, crying, singing, dancing - and being braver than ever before.

First think that interest me into reading it is the plot line. It is about moving on after you lose your loved one, husband in particular. not that i lose my husband too so i feel the same way with the character cause I'm not married and i also cannot imagine how she feels or anything like that...and I'm babbling unnecessary again he3x well the point is i just like the story..and i have a great time reading it..for me it's not the kind of book that you cannot put until it finish but it's just makes you want to have what Gerry and holly have (who doesn't??).
When i heard they making this novel into a movie, i was ecstatic.....hmm well i always get ecstatic when the novel i read was turn into a movie ha3x and after seeing
the trailer for the movie, i just really can't wait for December 21st..

when i first saw this poster for P.S. I love you, I'm instantly in love with it..this poster is just gorgeous, it's like they are really Holly and Gerry. yes i know it's silly cause i haven't even seen the movie but it's just look so right. probably this film wont be a blockbuster hit but i sure will so like it if not love it..and you sweety HAVE to accompany me watch this movie in the theater :D
Gerard butler look so handsome here..seriously, i don't really like him well i never see him in a movie before, cause i don't like 300 or watch any movie he plays, but now *droolll* ;p hehehhehehe
well i have to wait like 3 months to watch it but i'll wait patiently like i will wait nights of rodanthe which is still like a zillion years to come..



pics courtesy of

Sep 19, 2007

You Must Be

That's my YM status for the day.. you must be is a song by Gina Rene which is also one of the soundtrack from Step up Movie, they use this song in the roof top scene where the 2 character dance while romantic i know he3x..but when i hear this song it's not all those thing i remember..
i remember the rain and my geeky lovely boyfriend ;p ..
i think i always love rain --not to be mistake with that cute actor playing Korean drama full house but he's also a bit handsome isn't he? well thats out of topic--,heavy rain or just little raindrops.. well my reason back then is, when it's raining.. i can just go to my room, turn on the air conditioner, reading a book with a hot chocolate next to me..thats just like heaven on earth he3x (yes i know!! what a lazy girl!!)
Nowdays every time i hear that song i remember the rain and every time it's raining, that song plays in my head..
i don't know when i started to have this obsession about rain..i know i use to love it but to obsessed? well i think it's fine as long i can control it he3x..and i know one of the reason i love the rain is because of my boyfriend..
every time we were going home and there's a little sign of raining, he will "ask" me to bring an umbrella which i will " accidentally " forgot (is that an improper use of quotation mark? LOL)
well what he doesn't know is that i really like the rain because I'm with him..
when i can feel the raindrops in my hand with him by my side and that song playing in my head..
yes i know it's very cheesy but i do feel like that and I'm going to enjoy every single second when it happen again..
i like his expression when he tells me not to go into the rain, especially his kinda mad expression that said "it's a big rain, we better stay until it stop or at least not this big" ..all that expression just makes me wanna go into the rain with you baby he3x
even though he often said things like that, he always let me..and our adventure under the rain is countless..rain drops, usual rain or even heavy rain..
the heavy rain one is fun ( sorry for not listening sweety :p but i didn't regret it at all).. so we were heading to the trans Jakarta (busway) station in monas..and we stuck in his office at the KPPTI building, according to me the rain is not that big and i did bring an umbrella so i suggest that we just go on..and of course he said "hell no , this is HEAVY RAIN!!" (mind the language, i don't think he really said that but it's kinda fun to write it like that :p ) but then i just said its fine it's not that big of rain and we can use the umbrella anyway and then i look at him with that kitty cat eyes (i don't like puppy dog eyes he3x) ... well he finally said yes and we go walk to the station..big mistake baby!! cause it is a heavy rain very very heavy...well at first its not that big, its just like a couple of drops and then it's just getting bigger and bigger ha3x and we trap in the middle of the road..the umbrella didn't do much, well the fact that it's a very very tiny umbrella may play the part :D my shoes were wet,his shoes were clothes, my hair is all wet, so was his..and then when it's getting too big we have to stay in the telephone booth for a while (kinda romantic isn't it? well according to me not him that is ha3x). after the rain is not that heavy anymore, we started walked to the station with that tiny umbrella..don't get me wrong, the not so heavy rain is still heavy just not very very ( i didn't make any sense, did i? lol)
and all that time that you must be song keep playing in my mind, and in a couple of time when we walk, its just like we're moving in a slow motion ( cheesy and delusional ha10x )
Just like i said before..i enjoyed every single second of it and didn't regret anything..
and even though all that little bickering and i told you so from you..i know you enjoyed it to sweety and you will do that with me again in a heartbeat ;)

When I'm with you
you know you make my days
so beautiful
with your different ways
you make me lighter
I'm movin with the wind
love you know what you got for me
i got for you too
we can't pretend

give me another chance to breathe in
you got all the things i need and
together we're just so complete
you must be the reason I'm alive

(Gina Rene - You Must Be)

with love,

*this post is for every single raindrops we will went through in the future sweety.

The choice

No.. i don't have to make any choices or anything..

But it's time for the NEW Nicholas Sparks Novel!! yeeyyyy!!!

It's been so long since he had a new novel.. the last one is dear john which kinda disappointing, not that the book isn't good don't get me wrong.. it's a very beautiful book as always, it's just not a happy ending kind of book and i really really love that i ask nicely to nicholas sparks to make the sequel of the book where it will have the happy ending i wanted :))

His latest book which will be available September 24th, 2007 called The Choice. Basically the book is about a guy called Travis Parker who has everything, a good job, loyal friends, even a waterfront home in small-town North Carolina. But he doesn't believe in a serious relationship until he meet Gabby Holland who moves in next door (whose already have a long time boyfriend). Quote from his website about the book :

' his persistent efforts lead them both to the doorstep of a journey that neither could have foreseen. Spanning the eventful years of young love, marriage and family, The Choice ultimately confronts us with the most heart wrenching question
of all: how far would you go to keep the hope of love alive? '

If anybody want to ask my opinion about Nicholas sparks books, i don't think i can be objective. i will always say that all his books are wonderful and deserve to be read. but i do have my favorites and my so so but never bad..he's book never disappointed me when I'm feeling mellow he3x and I'm soo going to buy this book, if only it came out in Indonesia soon..

i will write review for the book as soon as i buy and finish the book..wish me luck!!


note: pics courtesy of

Sep 18, 2007

Best Friend? nope..i have special friends..

in my mind i always think that i had to have a best friend.. in whatever time and stages i was in, when I'm in kindergarten, elementary school, junior school, high school, college and even now at work..
in my own perspective (skepticism you may called it) that best friend doesn't have to be long lasting thing, its enough for that stages time in my live only..not that i don't want long lasting best friend thingy but usually after passing each stages, my best friend usually change into just friends..well that what happened from kindergarten ( duuuhh!!!) through junior school.
well in college i do find new best friend but it seems friendship in college is more complicated, too much drama and so on..and friendship is very tiring at that time..i do remember a couple of time in college i don't have anyone to tell all my problems..and I'm a good listener so i kinda miss somebody telling me their problems or's not like i don't have any best friend at that time..of course i do but gradually they turned into just friends..
well there's this one guy..we were best friend since fifth semester, mostly cause we like to chat late at night in yahoo messenger..well i talked he listen and he talk i listen..we ended up being best friend he's my sweet and patient boyfriend hehehehe...
high school on the other hand, change my skepticism about best friend, i found this six girls that was so nice to me and i ended up being best friend with them, its just kinda relieve to know that i will always had a shoulder to cry on (tell stories especially). when we graduated, i really try to hang on with this one. they all mean so much to me...

from all of my experience , when I feel that i don't have anybody to talked to or i don't have any best friend , i will still have my six friends from high school. They are not just my best friends,they are my special friends who will always be there for me whenever i needed anything..and it's been a good 9 years with full of happy or sad memories and i hope we will have the next nine years and the next one and the next one to share our stories and dreams..

oh, it's not like i forget my boyfriend for that "
I feel that i don't have anybody to talked to or i don't have any best friend" thingy :p , somebody told me that having your best friend as your couple can be the best thing that happen to you or just the worst thing . and i don't think the worst happen to me *wink* ..

and in spite of everything that people think, me and him did start purely from best friend (and we still are).. please don't tell me otherwise unless you already went through the same thing.. which at that time you'll know what i mean about pure best friend..ooh and don't think i write this last paragraph to defend my self, i don't really care about what they think and if they already make up their mind about me and him,my last paragraph certainly not going to change their mind. just don't go make up lies to other people.

and why do i suddenly sound so mad??? LOL

have a happy ramadan !!


Sep 11, 2007

i just realized...

this afternoon..
when i talk to him...
i just realized how much he willing to protect me..
when i look into his eye..
i just realized how much he care about me..
when i hold his hand...
i just realized how much he meant to me..

and when he tease me..
i just realize..
i cannot lose this and other moments with him..


Sep 10, 2007

another wedding...

Last saturday is a very interesting day..

Well the day start of early morning with bird chirping, the sun shining through the window and the cats singing good morning. i'm awake with this smile in my face and start dancing with the cats *remember that cinderella scene in the morning where the birds and the mouse sing and dance? exactly like that, i just change the mouse into a cat cause i dont really think there's a mouse in my room but then again i dont think all this can really happen*........... i really should stop starting my stories with dramatic effects..

it's actually the usual morning..i wake up in like 8 a.m and start doing my hair and make up for the wedding i will attend today..its my friend selo from college whose getting married and the wedding start at 11 p.m...well i finish in like 9 and thingking what the heck i'm going to do for 2 hours so that my make up and hair wont be messed up..and i failed miserably..

well my boyfriend came at around 10 a.m and at that one hour from 9 to 10, i just like sit still in my room so i didn't messed up my hair..and when he came i don't wanna be near him when he's bad enough if i messed up my hair..but what if i stink?? and its not like that you were smelly hun hehehehhe really you're it all worth that effort to keep my hair and make up very good? well you be the judge of it after seeing the photos..

i like this pic, i didn't look that bad...
so i put it everywhere lol..

well we finally went there like 11 .a.m and my friend mudie called, he ask us where are we..well we're just in front of my house :p it's not that far when there's no traffic jam and there's no traffic jam thank god! and there we met mudie and faris first and then our other college friends..we linger there for some times, and grab some food and catch up with our college friends and then grab another food hehehehe... well at 1 a.m, me and my boyfriend went back to our house to rest to get ready for our date..yes it is a busy saturday ;p

Me, mudie and faris..

and then at 4 p.m we went to pizza hut again, i think we eat pizza hut in our last date..and then some window shopping..oh and i see this beautiful orange-pink wallet in guess, it's sooooo good and i soooo want it..well my boyfriend already tell me to buy it if really really wanted it..and i really really wanted it but i decided to wait and think about it, and probably buy it tommorow or next week..good decision?? soo not! after finish a long hard thingking i decided to buy it the day after..and guess what..they dont have it anymore.. and on monday i tried to fine it in other places..they also dont have it..just my luck isnt it? sorry for not listening to you huney..and thanks for looking that wallet with me yesterday huney..

at the end of the day we said good night..hugs..and...chatting on the telephone again after he arrived at he place LOL

well thats saturday and a little bit of sunday and monday..

he said..

he said i'm beautiful when i'm feeling ugly..
he said i look good when i'm feeling fat..
he said i'm strong when i'm feeling week..
he said i can do whatever i want when i feel failed..

i thank him for that..
cause he makes me feel beautiful..
cause he makes me feel like i worth something..
and cause he makes me feel that he's the one who's lucky to have me..

he said i'm beautiful when i know i'm ugly..
he said i look good when i know i'm fat..
he said i'm strong when i know i'm week..
he said i can do whatever i want when i know i failed..

and i love him for that..
not because he lied..
but because he really see me not only at that time..
he see my potential, he see the real me and he see what i capable of doing..
and as chessy as i can be..
he really did see me beyond my physical feature.. ;)

- relationship cannot be based on fear, it will always put you in a terrible situation..